We just want to remind you that you never have to go through this alone, and support is always here for you. We understand how awful this must feel for you, especially after all you've been through. We are sorry to hear that you are tired and have had enough. Thank you for letting us know that you're currently in a safe place. I know there's no happy place waiting for me after death. The only girls who are ever interested in me either have low self esteem and feel like they have no choice but to settle on me, or they've had their own mental issues and have learned not to judge. I only even had my first girlfriend at 21. And before people say "oh you've just got to work on getting better at talking to people and being more charismatic" or something, I did that. And if I'm there, I'm treated like a piece of furniture. They always hesitate to invite me to things try to avoid it entirely. They're nice people, and easy to work with. I've settled at my current job because I'm tolerated. My desk is untidy? Time to treat me like shit. Someone refuses to do work for 6 hours? No problem. In one of them - I know it sounds arrogant but it's the truth - I was single handedly keeping the department going but my boss and most people there hated me. Apparently being an introvert struggling with depression and loneliness is worse than what they did.Įverywhere I go I wonder, will people tolerate me, or will they hate me? I've left two jobs because I was treated like a leper. My 'friends' admitted he was entirely in the wrong, then cut me out of their lives. I didn't just draw the line when he turned on me). One of my friends tried to hurt someone and did specific things to ruin my life specifically (I found out about both things at the same time. Then after all that, I discovered I was worth nothing to people who meant everything to me. That was incredibly difficult to achieve as I was crawling out of a pit of depression. (For the record I don't intend to kill myself, I don't have any specific plans on that and I am in a safe place)
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